Disappearing act lyrics

Artist  : Henry rollins 
Song : Disappearing act
 

I`m distracted not attracted
You attach without connection
As I self serve my diffracted mind
I don`t want what I need
I don`t care about the scars I leave
Your name and smile a thrown out file
As soon as we break away
Only when I hate you do I really love myself

I will only let you down
I can only fail you

you won`t want me then I`ll want you
When you come back I won`t want you
Pushed and pulled our minds will rip in two
I`m so scared of what I need I don`t care
about the scars received
I live in self denial
I`m afraid of what I`ve got
I don`t know why I hate you when you love me

My life`s the lies of you and I
I`ve grown so hard that I deny accusations even
when they`re true
My pain is all I trust I don`t care
how much I bleed
Don`t regret the time you met me
Don`t hold the harm I did against me
I don`t know why I want to hurt you
when you touch me

Why do you stick around and let me do this?
Why do you stick around for this torture?

Only when I`m with you do I want to be without
Your eyes are the windows
to the emptiness inside me