I want to know how it'll end. I want to be sure
of what it'll cost. I want to strangle the stars
for all they promised me. I want you to call me
on your drug phone. I want to keep you alive so
there is always the possibility of murder later.
I want to be there when you learn the cost of
desire. I want you to understand that my
malevolence is just a way to win. I want the name
of the ruiner. I want matches in case I have to
suddenly burn. I want you to know that being kind
is overrated. I want to write my secret across
your sky. I want to watch you lose control. I
want to watch you lose. I want to know exactly
what it's going to take. I want to see you insert
yourself into glory. I want your touches to scar
me so I'll know where you've been. I want you to
watch when I go down in flames. I want a list of
atrocities done in your name. I want to reach my
hand into the dark and feel what reaches back. I
want to remember when my nightmares were clearer.
I want to be there when your hot black rage rips
wide open. I want to taste my own kind. I want to
be wrapped in cold wet sheets to see if it's
different on this side. I want you to come on
strong. I want to leave you out in the cold. I
want the exact same thing but different. I want
some soft drugs.. some soft, soft drugs. I want
to throw you. I want you to know I know. I want
to know if you read me. I want to swing with my
eyes shut and see what I hit. I want to know just
how much you hate me so I can predict what you'll
do. I want you to know the wounds are
self-inflicted. I want a controlling interest. I
want to be somewhere beautiful when I die. I want
to be your secret hater. I want to stop destroying
you but I can't. And I want and I want and I want
and I will always be hungry. And I want and I
want and I want.
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