so much that i can't say to you
my voice
shakes from the hurt that i hide
ashamed of
my existence
and of my petty often wounded
pride
i'd like to come home to see you
and to catch your sickness by the bedside
but then you'd know how much i really need
you
all the love in an instant
makes my life stop
but then my hate for
you
makes my feelings altogether drop
if only i were blind to your selfish
fling
and your desperate cause
and
didn't press you for the details
that
threaten my physical flaws
i'd like
to come home to see you
and embrace your
illness under soft light
but then you'd
know how much i really need you
all
the love in an instant
makes my life
stop
but then my hate for you
makes
my feelings altogether drop
so much
that i can say to you
with affection that i
burn inside
you're aching from the
distance
avoiding strain that's running
still alive
if only i could heal you in the
sprinkling of the ocean side
but then you'd
know how much i really love you
all
the love in an instant
makes my life
stop
but then my hate for you
makes
my feelings altogether drop